maybe i should ignore my knee condition and start running a lot again..
helps to clear my mind anw...
and i say again, im not afraid of being scolded. im not afraid of being suspended or anything, cause it'll just be like history repeating itself. im just afraid one one thing, which i dont want to say. and, neither am i ready to betray anyone although its unlikely to happen,but i dont want to be living with guilt for 2 things, one is enough already.
i am super sorry to that person.
i just slept the whole day today after i came home.
i dont want to do anything, write or read anything.
i just want to sleep. replenish all the fucking lost hours of sleep.
Class is getting tough.
im still sick,which sucks.
my mood is always kinda not very okay. i think i have moodswings. lol
im beginning to regret getting into triple science.
im like, scared that i will like die later in the year or something.
since most teachers says so.
and, i cannot fucking stay attentive for physics and bio and some other lessons, and 95% of the time, i feel like sleeping cause their voice seem to be like lullabies. why?
cause there's like so fucking much homework that i seriously cannot deal with totally. i sleep like, 1-2am in the morning just cause i want to finish my work. and, sometimes i even cannot finish.
wtf! who knows it'll be so difficult man.
fuck. nvm.. i brought it to myself anw. i just have to deal with it, compromising resolution number One.
fuck.
Sometimes you have to do the wrong thing.
Sometimes you have to make a big mistake, to figure out how to make things right.
Mistakes are painful.
But they're the only way to really find out who you are.
Pleasure is Good.
Twice as much pleasure is better.
Pain is bad.
And no pain is better.
But the reality is different.
The reality is that pain is there to tell us something, and it hurts for a reason.
And there's only so much pleasure we can take without getting a stomach ache, and maybe that's okay.
Maybe some fantasies are only supposed to live in our dreams.
hi people.
ending lessons at four is really tiring manz...
anw, i just rmbered setting new year resolutions in church that day.. first of all was,
Not trouble anyone else because everyone has their own problems, and the last thing they need is mine on their list.
but ofcourse, it doesnt apply if YOU are telling me yours. :P im a big kaypo mah.
second was, score better results. reach my goals.
third was, to keep my relationship good with the people i choose to. :P
fourth, grow deeper in the Lord.
the others, i forgot.. LOL! anw, im falling sick and i really hate it. it all started with a sorethroat, great LOR.. lol!
2 posts in one day, in less than 1 hr. but i really got to say this. everyday, facebook will send me this notification from the app 'on this day, God wants you to know...' so i went to see today's, and it said :
"You've been worrying too much about the future lately. So tonight, go ahead, put your faith in God, and just have a peaceful evening and a restful sleep."
it totally relates to my previous post man! and i am truly amazed and how God can tell me messages from every single source.. and i really do hope i can follow this sentence, and put my faith in God..
philippians 4:13 : i can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.
