sigh, so many tests and whatnots. tmr's bio and chinese. monday's emath. tuesday's geog and physics. like wtf, geog and physics? how to rmb everything man :( fk..
ran today, and felt totally nauseous when i came back. plus my knee hurts like idk wht after i came back. like wtf, have i gone so damn fking weak that even just a run caused this shit. lol..
im so going to run again tmr, if i have the time.. i dont want to be this weak man.
fk fk fk fk fk fk fk fk fk fk fk, i hate life now...
you know how much i wish for time to stop right now? even if its just a moment.. i just want time to stop, so that i can breathe... and catch up on my stupid undone work, and whatever i dont get. you know i would just kill for that to happen? which fker can build a time machine man. it seriously sucks. i hate life.
hi readers.
had church today. i woke up at 5 this morning and sat around aimlessly. then i decided to take a shower and wait for my aunt's call while i watch my grey's anatomy.
then she called twice and i didnt know. blahblahblah, i was in church. lifegroup talked about creation. service talked about confessions. then went for lunch monkey sarah sim again. was fun.
went down to meet amelia ellenca zixuan kenny bingqing and gabriel. headed down to city hall and met elaine. had a damn good time with them at marina square, i got electrocuted by some machine. cause they were trying to catch toys, then i leaned on a machine and got electrocuted... now it feels like im in p6, just had my injection. hahah. kenny also kena.
anw, ate yuki yaki. and laughed like mad alot of times. ellenca was offically named tissue. cause every table she goes, there's bound to be lots and lots of tissue used. LOL.. then walked around marina square, and i swear im going to save money and buy an acoustic guitar for myself. i want something like lionel's!! maybe can get my bro share half the price with me, then can share the guitar. hahahah..
headed home after that. i loved today, generally. :)
hi people. i've been quite irritated and whatever about an incident involving accusing and indirect name calling that results in my mum almost stepping in to call the school. but anw, whatever.. i just know that now, the person's an idiot.
anw, ponder upon this word 'change'. i've been thinking about it for quite some time. until i saw, or rather, read something. made me think even more.. change, what caused it? idk. made me different, definately. to change for the better, or to change for the worst. i guest it might have been negative results. what is the difference in me from the present and the past?. idk. do i want to be the person in the past? yeah i guess, since i might have been a better person. i really wonder, what changed me, and i really cannot think. reflecting back, now i know how much different i was from now. i want to be back the time when i actually knew how to be happy. isnt being happy a very simple task? well, i guess it has been getting more and more challenging each day for me.
anw, i thank that person who wrote that, it really made me think and reflect on the past 2 years of my secondary
hi readers. cny was not too bad. though im not really in the cny mood. hahah. anw, went the usual visiting places. heng i won some money overall-ly in blackjack and inbetween at different houses. and i think tchers are rubbish to give hw on cny. like who will be able to finish it? LOL amath is officially and always will be killing me. 10Qs oni and i cant solve. how great. had to bother mr marctan. LOL super-long is becoming more of my nickname widely used other than jadie. LOL. just dont add the extra word infront(note to shimin and gang). nothing much, just hope i can cope. thats my cny wish, if there is such a thing.
fuck all this man. my results all not up to standard. got back geog, chem, Amath. yet none satisfies me. all bullshit. i come home, have to face more shit of urs. like some glk, pissing me off like u have nothing else to do. im seriously e x h a u s t e d. i have not enough rest everyday. why, fuck studies man. i serious feel like just not studying at all. lets fail everything and move
church today. nothing much. today had holy communion as it is the first sunday of the month. its cny and valentine's next week!! hahah. many asked which to celebrate. LOL. okay, anw.. had lunch with monkey sarah sim
why dont i understand anything? like, so many subs.. Amath, physics, sometimes geog etc, like what the fuck. everyone tells me i need time to adapt. but do i even have that time. and most of the teachers say that these are the fundamentals. like the basics i need to be able to do more complicated topics. if i dont get these, how am i going to survive the difficult ones. wtf man, i feel so fucking useless. and i hate that...
hi people.
i want to say.. aren't 3/5 students human? so what if its the best class, doesn't mean we don't make mistakes. doesn't mean we don't fail..
okay, whatever.
i thank God for the MIKES or the BIMBS that they are in my class, who never fail to make me laugh everyday. :)
mike 2, mike 4, mike 7.
bimbo,bimba,bimbeh. HAHHA. okay, love u guys :)
and, its yet another new beginning, i hope it will be different from before, more lasting :)
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